2018 – you are THE BOMB!

Hi 2018!

We shared so much memories together; both good and not so good. You made me go through so much and I both lost and gained a lot for the past 12 months.

I can’t say that I would hate to see you go because honestly, I can’t wait for this year to end and for another fresh start to open for me. But, I want to thank you, 2018. Thank you for molding me to be stronger, wiser, and bolder enough to face 2019 with a fuller spirit.

My heart, although scarred and still recovering, remains grateful. You have brought so many people in my life which taught me different things but mostly about choosing about who stays and who leaves, when to hold on and when to let go, and you reminded me about the importance of putting myself on top of my priorities before anything so that I’d be able to support the people I love.

12 months together and I have lost so much, 2018. So far this has been the most heartbreaking year of my life – from letting go of a relationship, to losing friends, and losing my Lola.

My heart was crushed, my soul lost a lot of light, and my sense of self crumbled. But while you gave me much of a heartbreak, you also blessed me with people who stayed – family, real friends, new people, and did I say family? I guess what Popoy said in One More Chance was true, that “May darating na mas okay, yung taong magtatama ng lahat ng mga mali sa buhay natin.” and this resonates not only in a romantic POV but across all the relationships that I have regained, rebuilt, and discovered.

So thank you, 2018. You have been a good teacher to me and I will repay your goodness by becoming a better version of myself as I say hello to 2019.

Remaining hopeful,

Louise

Hope for a Purpose

Welcome to my sanctuary.

I created this blog five or six years ago. This blog contained so much about my life since then; I have 88 blog posts and 40+ drafts that I’m not sure if I’ll still publish. Originally, I planned to start over by creating a new blog and deleting this page. However, I can’t push the delete button because I already shared too much, hence, I just hid the old posts and begin anew. I find the idea of starting anew but also keeping the memories better.

This blog, from this post on, will serve as my avenue in sharing my life to people I know, and don’t know. This is me choosing courage, openness, generosity, and vulnerability.

I honestly am not comfortable to write about topics and events in my life that I consider personal. Gone is my adolescence and my need to share my life to the rest of the world. But even if it is uncomfortable, I made the decision to be open with who I am, and what I am.

What I will be doing isn’t exactly a therapy but this is one of my way to really connect with my being. The honesty I give away here is for myself as much as it is for the people reading this.

My hope is that through writing and opening up, I get to understand the person that I am and eventually become a congruent person. In the very same way, I also hope that in ways I wouldn’t know, somehow, even in a little way, I want to give hope to you, the person reading this now. I hope that my blog, my stories, and my life, will remind you that there is hope, and that in everything that happens in your life, you aren’t alone in the journey.

That’s it, for now.

Thank you for reading until the end. I look forward to swapping stories & sharing learning with you. 🙂